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I have been told by so many people when they learned i was trans that God doesn't make mistakes. My own father who is not religious even told me this. I was raised Christian and i still am and always will be a Christian. So how do i reconcile this? I fully agree God does not make mistakes. I am not a mistake. I am part of his creation. He created me to be transgendered. He has a plan for me and my life even if i don't know exactly what that plan is. Being trans is not a mistake it is part of being human for some people. Some people are male some are female and some like myself are something in between. It does not make us a mistake it just makes us something a little different. We bridge the gender spectrum. We can never be fully the gender we feel we are as we will never be able to reproduce as our preferred gender and our genetics will always be the gender of our birth but we can live the life of that gender and have the perspective of our birth gender. We can see both sid...

Growing up in a Christian family Easter was always a big church day. IT is considered to be the most important holiday in the church calender. And for girls and women it was always a day to wear a pretty new spring dress to church. I have attended churches where the dress code was casual and people came in jeans and tshirts to some services but on Easter everyone always dressed in their best. I remember when i was younder seeing my female cousins in their pretty new dresses. Going toi church and seeing other girls in their pretty new dresses and the same for women as i grew up. At the same time i knew I whould be wearing a pretty new dress but always forced to wear a dress shirt tie and pants. Later in life i realized I'd never have been welcome in most of those churches in a dress. To them I was a boy. Boy's don't wear dresses. But in my heart I always knew better.

Many people will argue that a trans woman is not really a woman. Some would say to be a woman you have to be born with female genitalia and female sex organs. Some would say you have to have two X chromosomes. Not every woman is born this way. I don't think anyone would argue that every woman pictured above is a beautiful woman. Guy's who see them walking down the street would certainly take a second look. They might even be attracted enough to flirt with them or ask them out. But every woman above according to the before mentioned criteria is not a woman. Every one of them was born with male genitalia. Every one of them has an X and a Y chromosome. But do they look like men to you? Of course not they are beautiful women. A woman does not have to be lucky enough to be born geneticly female. They don't have to have female genitals or chromosomes. Being female is also a state of mind. If you know you are a woman inside and chose to take the steps to live as a woman you are ...

Ok i'm having way too much fun with this app but I love to see how pretty i can look. This picture gave me shorter hair. Think i prefer the longer hair in the other two pictures but this look is cute too.

As you can see I've been having fun playing with the feminizing app again. But I love it as it gives me a glimpse of what I could be. But anyway onto a new topic. Unlike most girls in the world trans women have the ability to chose our name from the time we start living as female. When i first started considering names I considered several Jennifer probably came to mind first. It is a very common name among girls my age and I have known many. But i think that was the problem. I wanted something different. Plus i have a cousin of the same name why have two in the family. The name i went by online for a long time was Michelle. I always loved that name so pretty and feminine and I don't think I've ever met a Michelle who's beauty didn't fit the name. But the name didn't really fit well with my last name. So finally i came to the name Kristi and the middle name Lynn. Not totally sure why but i liked the name and i use to work with a girl with th...

I always dreamed of living as a woman and being seen as a woman but never had the chance. I still would not have the guts to post a picture of exactly how i look now but thanks to a neat online app i can show you what i might look like as a woman. I don't know but I think I look pretty cute. Would love to hear others thoughts. The picture is a real photo of me just modified by the app to feminize it.

I know many women genetic and trans do not enjoy orally pleasing a man for various reasons. Among them the taste, the smell, or just the idea of sucking on the same body part that he urinates out of. But if the man is clean and you try it i think more women would enjoy it. As posted before my first sexual encounter with a man was oral sex. I was nervous, i had no real idea what i was doing, but once i began everything felt so natural to me and it was pleasing to both my partner and I. I found over they years the more i did it the better i got at it even being able to bring my partners all the way to completion, and the more i enjoyed it. I think what i enjoy the most is the intimacy. You have your lips wrapped around your man's most pleasurable part of his body. When he likes it you know it. You feel his cock harden, you feel it thicken and you feel it as the pleasure intensifies and he gets into it more and more. Add some tongue to his shaft and play with his balls and you wil...

As I've sais many times before this girl has a nerdy side. One of my biggest passions is for space exploration. And I was lucky enough to attend Space Camp 7 times. I of course had to go as one of the guys on the team. But like all things in life longed to be one of the girls. A lot of people probably assume most campers of these programs are male but not so its about evenly split. And I know atleast one other trans person a female to male named Mike who also attended though i'm sure others have as well. Mike who was known as Kim at the time actually went by Mike that week and even though he was bunked with girls was open about who he was and was accepted as one of the guys. This is something I always envied.  Clearly i'm not the girl in the picture but it comes from about the time of my first trip to Space Camp in 1991. I look back on that first trip and i also realise i had a big crush on one of my teammates. His name was Devon. We got to be really good...

As I've said before this girl has a nerdy side. And one thing i have loved since i was young was the Batman franchise. Movies, Comics, TV shows, Video games etc. One of the earliest Batman graphic novels i bought was called "The Killing Joke". The issue is now famous or infamous depending on your point of view for its graphic violence and implied sexual assault. But it was also a turning point for the character of Barbara Gordon also known as Batgirl. In this issue Joker shows up at her home shoots her and kidnaps her father Commissioner Gordon subjecting him to psychological torment mainly naked pictures of his daughter lying in a pool of her own blood. It is also said the bullet severed her spine and she will never walk again. It was the end of the batgirl character and the birth of a new character. Oracle. She first shows up in the pages of the "Suicide Squad" comic series as a faceless hacker providing that team information and going by the name Oracle...

It's no secret that transgendered issues have been in the news a lot in recent years. It is finally bringing the issue to the fore front after so many years of no one wanting to talk about it. There is good information out there if you look for it and some bad as well if you are not careful. When I was growing up i had no transgendered role models. For many years I had no idea that there was anyone else like me out there. It was not until my teen years i knew what I was. With the recent flood of stories about trans celebrities, rights, and legal issues no one can claim that its hard to find information anymore. But for teens and young trans guys and girls they still face many problems and uncertainty. They face parents and friends who do not understand or often do not accept them for who and what they are. But there is atleast one role model in my opinion that they can look up to now. Jazz Jennings a transsexual teen who has spent most of her life living as her chosen gender....

I grew up going to church. I attended several denominations over the years. But none of them made as big a deal about a child's first communion as the catholic church does. Ever since i saw my first communion dress at a young age I fell in love with the beauty and femininity. They looked so much like a wedding dress and what girl doesn't dream of wearing a beautiful wedding dress. Like so many other things I never got to wear one and my first communion was not a big event as in most protestant churches but even to this day I love the look of these beautiful dresses.

This story comes from when i was in college. One semester in college i took a class in human sexuality. The discussions were frank and adult for sure and little was held back by anyone in the class. There were of course sections on transsexuality and sexual orientation. I got to be friends with a guy in the class named will. We had a lot in common including the fact we were both bisexual. After discovering this we decided to hook up one day at my house. Will came over and to be honest we got right to it. He knew i was a bottom so i as usual took the feminine role. (He didn't know at this point i was also transgendered.) After giving him oral and getting him nice and hard we moved onto other things. We tried me on my back with my legs up but Will was a bigger guy and the position didn't really work well. So i rolled onto my stomach and he fucked me that way. One other note this was the first and only time i got fucked to completion bareback. I trusted him and knew him well...

Growing up i had many crushes mostly on other girls, sometimes on boys. As talked about in an earlier post i didn't realise sexuality and gender identity were two completely separate things until i was an adult. I eventually realized i was bisexual. I met a guy named Mike when i was about 14. He was a couple years younger than me. This is not the same Mike i lost my virginity to he came later. (guess i have a thing for guys named Mike.) We got to be good friends we were both Star Trek fans and hung out a lot. As i got older after the cancer battle i started finding myself more and more attracted to him. He grew from a kind of geeky kid to a really hot man. When i was still recovering and still mostly home bound he came over a lot and we hung out watched TV had lunch etc. We shared a love of Sci Fi and a great friendship. The more time we spent together the more i fell for him. Sadly i never had the guts to tell him how i felt and to my knowledge he has no idea im Transgendere...

As i posted in an earlier post, growing up i always loved the American Girl Dolls. Sadly being seen as a boy i never got to own one or have a matching outfit or have the experience that so many girls my age had. Today American Girls introduced a new doll after my own hear. Luciana Vega an 11 year old girl who wants to be an astronaut. Besides the basic (and in my opinion really cute )dress seen here she will have a space suit and a Space Camp flight suit as well as space themed accessories available. As I've said before I always wanted to be an astronaut growing up. Imagine that news story "First Transgendered Astronaut". I also attended Space Camp 7 times so needless to say Luciana is the American Girl doll i always wanted but never existed until now.

In a previous post i talked about Christmas eve and my dreams crushed so many years. Every Christmas eve when I would fall asleep dreaming i'd either wake up to find i was really a girl and i'd go out to find Santa had brought me the right presents or that my family would figure out i was a girls and i'd wake up to new clothes, new toys and the start of a new life under my tree. Every year i was disappointed. The year after my secret was discovered i'd hoped my dad might come to his senses and make it all alright sadly none of this ever happened. Just the dreams of a little girl trapped in the body of a boy.

Growing up Christmas was always a big family event. Christmas eve was spent at my dad's parents for dinner, family and presents. Christmas Day was spent at home then Christmas night we went to my mom's parents for more of the same. Growing up my brother and I were never hurting for presents and we usually got what we asked for and even if we didn't we usually forgot when we saw everything we did get. Toy wise growing up my Christmas list were typical boy toys. As i said even if my mind said i was a girl i was still a boy on the outside and a tomboy in my interests. However I had mostly female cousins growing up nd i did envy them getting pretty new clothes, and dolls and getting to wear the pretty Christmas dresses like this one. I wished i could have been among them. As they got older the toys and clothes turned into clothes and makeup and more grown up girly gifts and i envied it even more. One of my maybe stranger memories of envy was a gift my grandparents gave to...

Growing up i was in a few Christmas plays. Going to church and going to a private Christian elementary school I did not have a lot of choice. But i never got to play the roles I really wanted to play. Two years come to mind especially. One year in a church play i was cast to play Joseph. For most boys this would be great it was a lead role. But even then deep down inside I knew i wanted to be Mary. Of course that would never happen and I played i think a decent Joseph even if i had a slight wardrobe malfunction with the head piece i was wearing and probably got a few laughs when i had to get the pastor who was sitting to the side of the stage to help put it back on. The other year was for an elementary school play. Every class was divided up into groups based on boys and girls and age. Boys were the three wise men, shepherds, and lions. Girls were Camels, stars, lambs, and angels. I was a shepherd one of only a few with a speaking part. The girls in my class were lambs but i...

I will admit I have always been a Disney girl. Loved Disney princesses from when i was little and was watching the classic Disney movies. My wife and I even had our honeymoon though not our wedding in Disney World. My dream wedding however would have been a Disney wedding with me as the bride marrying a handsome man who would be my Prince Charming. Me wearing a beautiful ball gown style dress riding in the Cinderella carriage and feeling like a princess. It is a fantasy of most girls. I was watching Disney Fairy Tale weddings tonight and saw two women have this dream come true. I'm both jealous and depressed and loved it all at the same time.

Aside from the facts about transgendered people seen above i thought i'd post some general do's and don'ts when talking to or dating a transgendered person. These are more specific to trans women but many apply to trans men to. Don'ts Don't treat us like one of the guys we are women. Being born geneicly male doesn't mean we are now we want to be treated the same way you treat any other woman. Don't ask us do you still have your cock? or any other word for it atleast not right away. If you think you might become intimate with a trans woman then it may be something to bring up but be respectful. Just know if you are dating a trans woman she may be post op, pre op or even non op. If you are not comfortable with these possibilities then you may want to look elsewhere. If you do become intimate with a preop woman don't ask her to fuck you in the ass. We are not gay men. If you want that try a gay man you'll have better luck. And if the woman is ...

Every year growing up i watched the Macy's parade on thanksgiving. I still watch it every year. One thing i always loved were the flag twirlers and dancers in their ourfits. Always so pretty and feminine looking part of me always wished I could be one of them. I look back now and think those poor girls were probably freezing every year but it would have been worth it. Happy Thanksgiving to anyone who is reading.