Christmas Morning

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In a previous post i talked about Christmas eve and my dreams crushed so many years. Every Christmas eve when I would fall asleep dreaming i'd either wake up to find i was really a girl and i'd go out to find Santa had brought me the right presents or that my family would figure out i was a girls and i'd wake up to new clothes, new toys and the start of a new life under my tree. Every year i was disappointed. The year after my secret was discovered i'd hoped my dad might come to his senses and make it all alright sadly none of this ever happened. Just the dreams of a little girl trapped in the body of a boy.

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