Christmas



Growing up Christmas was always a big family event. Christmas eve was spent at my dad's parents for dinner, family and presents. Christmas Day was spent at home then Christmas night we went to my mom's parents for more of the same. Growing up my brother and I were never hurting for presents and we usually got what we asked for and even if we didn't we usually forgot when we saw everything we did get.

Toy wise growing up my Christmas list were typical boy toys. As i said even if my mind said i was a girl i was still a boy on the outside and a tomboy in my interests. However I had mostly female cousins growing up nd i did envy them getting pretty new clothes, and dolls and getting to wear the pretty Christmas dresses like this one. I wished i could have been among them. As they got older the toys and clothes turned into clothes and makeup and more grown up girly gifts and i envied it even more.

One of my maybe stranger memories of envy was a gift my grandparents gave to everyone. If you were a boy you got new socks as one gift every Christmas eve. If you were a girl you got new panties. Seems like such a small thing but every year i got socks was just another reminder that my family saw me as a boy not the girl I am.

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