Average Bisexual TS woman's blog

I will admit I have always been a Disney girl. Loved Disney princesses from when i was little and was watching the classic Disney movies. My wife and I even had our honeymoon though not our wedding in Disney World. My dream wedding however would have been a Disney wedding with me as the bride marrying a handsome man who would be my Prince Charming. Me wearing a beautiful ball gown style dress riding in the Cinderella carriage and feeling like a princess. It is a fantasy of most girls. I was watching Disney Fairy Tale weddings tonight and saw two women have this dream come true. I'm both jealous and depressed and loved it all at the same time.

In 2000 when i was still recovering from my battle with cancer i met a woman named Lori online. We started chatting. We lived in different states more then 10 hours drive apart but we started falling in love. It took several years but i asked her to mary me. She had no idea about me wanting to be a woman, or being bisexual, or my history with men etc. To this day she still doesn't. I was in love with her enough that i decided at that point to put my deepest desire to be a woman aside and spend my life with her. She made it clear she was not interested in women trans or otherwise, But i went through with it and in early 2009 we were married. Even as i stood at the alte though i felt i should be the bride walking sown the isle. I married her as a man and i wore a tux but the above picture of two women getting married i feel expresses the way i really felt on that wedding day. I love her i plan to spend my life with her but part of me still desires to find a way to become who i...