A crush on my best friend

Growing up i had many crushes mostly on other girls, sometimes on boys. As talked about in an earlier post i didn't realise sexuality and gender identity were two completely separate things until i was an adult. I eventually realized i was bisexual.

I met a guy named Mike when i was about 14. He was a couple years younger than me. This is not the same Mike i lost my virginity to he came later. (guess i have a thing for guys named Mike.) We got to be good friends we were both Star Trek fans and hung out a lot. As i got older after the cancer battle i started finding myself more and more attracted to him. He grew from a kind of geeky kid to a really hot man. When i was still recovering and still mostly home bound he came over a lot and we hung out watched TV had lunch etc. We shared a love of Sci Fi and a great friendship.

The more time we spent together the more i fell for him. Sadly i never had the guts to tell him how i felt and to my knowledge he has no idea im Transgendered or even bisexual. He eventually married and we still hung out but not nearly as much. Eventually moved out of the area. We are still in touch through social media. Ironically his daughter is presenting as gender variant. I'm thankful to see both he and his wife are accepting parents who just want their daughter to be happy. I often wonder though what would have happened if i told him.