Earliest Memories

For as long as i can remember I always felt like i should have been born a girl. Though i had no idea why or what it meant for many years I just remember wanting to be pretty. My earliest memory i couldn't be more than 3 or 4 years old. I remember finding some of my mother's clothes and thinking how soft they felt and how pretty they were. I remember wanting to be just like my mom. One day she was curling her hair and i asked if she could curl mine too. I had pretty long hair at that age. My mom agreed and I felt so pretty. It seems like such a small thing now but i also realize it was the start of what would be a long road to discovering who and what I really am. Now unlike the boy in this picture my mom used a curling iron I wouldn't get to use rollers until years later but for me it was a start. Sadly my mother died when i was 6 and I never had the chance to tell her how i felt but I have been told she always wanted a daughter and she had 2 boys. I think back and wish i could have become her daughter and i think she would have accepted me as a daughter but sadly I will never know for sure.