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Every year growing up i watched the Macy's parade on thanksgiving. I still watch it every year. One thing i always loved were the flag twirlers and dancers in their ourfits. Always so pretty and feminine looking part of me always wished I could be one of them. I look back now and think those poor girls were probably freezing every year but it would have been worth it. Happy Thanksgiving to anyone who is reading.

Over the years I found ways to make myself look more feminine. I had breast forms and padded bras, i had a waste cincher and tummy control panties, and i had wings to make my hair longer. But there is one thing i was never able to achieve and something i always envied genetic women. A flat bikini zone. I always envied the look of a woman in an evening gown like the one above with a nice smooth sillouette below the chest, or a woman in a bikini with nothing to hide. I couldn't even wear a pait of panties without a bulge just simply from my genitals even when limp. I tried tucking a few times but never went as far as a gaff. For those who may not know what a gaff is it is a specially designed panty that helps a transgendered woman tuck away the undesired parts to achieve the feminine look. I had always heard they are extremely uncomfortable and usually involve tucking your testicles up inside your abdomen something i was never comfortable trying to do. Without tucking the look re...

As posted in an earlier post i have been disabled for 18 years. I have been receiving disability payments all those years while trying to get to a point where i can work full time and completely pay my own way. This week my boss called me into her office and offered me a full time position. So as of next week i'm full time with benefits and can get off of the disability. Still have some details to work out but right now this picture says how i feel.

A lot of people don't know what it means to be transgendered. A lot don't realise theat Transgender has a wide spectrum of definitions depending on the person involved. Here are a few simple definitions of some transgendered terms. Transgender is an umbrella term for persons whose gender identity, gender expression or behavior does not conform to that typically associated with the sex to which they were assigned at birth. Gender identity refers to a person’s internal sense of being male, female or something else; gender expression refers to the way a person communicates gender identity to others through behavior, clothing, hairstyles, voice or body characteristics. “Trans” is sometimes used as shorthand for “transgender.” While transgender is generally a good term to use, not everyone whose appearance or behavior is gender-nonconforming will identify as a transgender person. The ways that transgender people are talked about in popular culture, academia and science are con...

One thing I have encountered a lot over the years is some common misconceptions about transgendered people. Many of them are from a lack of understanding others are perpetuated by the media, the church and other places but all have lead to a misunderstanding of what a transgendered person is. So i'm going to use my next few blogs to hopefully clear some of them up. 1. And probably the biggest one i encounter. Transgendered people are just gay and lesbian people who can't deal with being gay and lesbian so they become the opposite gender to be more socially accepted. This is wrong on so many levels. gender identity and sexual orientation are completely different. Just like being a man does not automatically make you attracted to women, being a trans woman does not automatically mean you are attracted to men. Same goes for cis gender women and trans men. Transgendered people may identify their gender in many ways. A Male to female trans woman who is attracted to men would con...

One of the side effects of my spinal cord damage is that often things do not always work the way they are supposed to. Over the years of being married to my wife i have learned to find other ways to pleasure her and her me that don't nessecarily involve my male genetalia. Already feeling like a woman this has made me often feel like we are more like a lesbian couple in the way we make love. Ogten time fingering is involved sometimes i use my tongue to pleasure her. Always it is very intimate and passionate. She has no idea i see it this way and often wonders what i get out of it but i find the whole thing very pleasurable. I wish she could see it that way. She has made it clear she has no interest in women and she only sees me as her husband. I see us as too women very much in love and even though i doubt I will ever be able to tell her the truth i have my fantasy.

Over the years I've held a variety of jobs, I've been a cashier, a teacher, worked in retail sales, a camp counselor, and even a carnival ride operator. For the last two years however I've been working as a banker. It's funny in this industry the higher up jobs are held by predominantly men but the day to day jobs like mine are mainly women. I work in an office doing a combination of customer service. and loan work. Most of my office is women only 4 men if you include me. The women i work with however i envy. They are all friends, not catty. They have girls nights they get along great and even hang out outside of work. But they see me as one of the guys. I hear them discussing hair, and clothes and shoes and wish i could join in and comment on cute outfits and shoes and the like. I wish i could go out to girls night with them. I also get a chance to see the current fashion trends for women my age and wish i could ask where they got that outfit or those shoes? Etc. Man...

Virginia was not the only place to elect an openly transgendered woman last night. Minneapolis elected Andrea Jenkins to represent Ward 8 on the city council last night as well. To both ladies who won you go girls. Kick but.

Last night i was very proud of my home state of Virginia for electing an openly trans woman to the state legislature. Danica Roem was running against an openly homophobic candidate who refused to acknowledge her as a woman, who played on fear and hatred to try to win votes and openly called himself the state's chief homophobe. Thankfully intelligent people saw through his rhetoric and did not let hatred win out. I may no longer live in Virginia but today I can say i'm proud of atleast some of its people. Danica good luck and knock em dead in Richmond.

Yesterday i expressed my geek girl side and pointed out i was a Star Trek fan. Well some may see it as sacrelidge but i'm also a Star Wars Fan as well and do a lot of Star Wars Costuming. One costume i'd love to do but have never done is Padame's steel blue night gown seen from Star Wars Episode 3 Revenge of the Sith seen above. So pretty so feminine and yet still geeky too. Who says a girl cant be a geek and hot too.

I know many people read that topic title and think some geek who lives in their parents basement. As demonstrated by the picture above however geeks and nerds can be sexy too. We are just like anyone else we come in all shapes, sizes, genders, and gender variations. We have careers and spouses. And yes some of us are girls too so take that stereotypes. I've always been a huge Star Trek fan and i love costuming and cosplay. One of my dream costumes would be to do a Star Trek women's uniform like the one above. It's sexy, its girly and still nerdy. I have owned a few Star Trek costumes but all male no female ones. But a girl can dream can't she.

As i said in my last post i got married in 2009. My wife has no idea about the other side of me. As far as she knows i'm a straight man and always have been. In 2010 i got one more opportunity to express my feminine side. My wife went out of town for a few days with some family and i had to stay behind because of work. So I went to a local store bought a new bra, some panties and a wig and thigh highs. I went home and went to my old stomping ground of craig's list and placed an add for a no strings attached hookup as either male or female. I got replies for both. In the end i had two guys come over and i gave them oral sex one as a male and one as Kristi. It would be the last time to date I got to express the feminine side of me. I would have one more hookup with a guy but as a guy but that story will come later. I hope this will not be Kristi's last appearance for all time but it is so far.   

In 2000 when i was still recovering from my battle with cancer i met a woman named Lori online. We started chatting. We lived in different states more then 10 hours drive apart but we started falling in love. It took several years but i asked her to mary me. She had no idea about me wanting to be a woman, or being bisexual, or my history with men etc. To this day she still doesn't. I was in love with her enough that i decided at that point to put my deepest desire to be a woman aside and spend my life with her. She made it clear she was not interested in women trans or otherwise, But i went through with it and in early 2009 we were married. Even as i stood at the alte though i felt i should be the bride walking sown the isle. I married her as a man and i wore a tux but the above picture of two women getting married i feel expresses the way i really felt on that wedding day. I love her i plan to spend my life with her but part of me still desires to find a way to become who i...

Alexis was not the only trans woman i met on the TS Girlfriend sight however she was the only one i ever dated. Another girls i met was Shane. She was an older preop trans woman several years older than me and we quickly became friends never talked of dating just became girlfriends in the platonic sense. She was living full time as a woman and I told her how i really wanted to try going out in public as a woman maybe hit a club or something. She said she'd be happy to help but we decided we needed a shopping day to get ready. So we met up at the mall and spent the day shopping just like any girlfriends might do. We looked at a lot of outfits but never found one that was quite right. We did find a good lingerie sale at one pont thtough and i bought a new bra and a few pairs of panties. We figured we'd get together again and go somewhere else sometime then we could go out clubbing. But Shane got a boyfriend and we talked less and less and eventually lost touch and never got to...

  Around 2006 or 2007 i discovered a transsexual dating sight. The sight was calld ts girlfriend for me . com. Sadly that aight no longer exist as it was a well run personal sight where people looking for genuine love could meet. tsgirlfriend.com its companion sight does still exist and has a lot of great info on dating trans women. When i discovered the sight i posted two personal ads one as Kristi and one as my male self. Eventually through the chat room and dating side of the sight i started talking to Alexis. As far as she knew i was totally male and eventually we decided to meet. The day came and i have to say she was a very pretty woman and i found myself attracted to her immediately. We went to a museum, movie and lunch and we had a good time. That night i talked to her again online and she told me even though she had a good time she didn't feel a chemistry. I don't know maybe we didn't mesh or maybe it was the fact i would rather have been ...